Life's Journey with God

So midterms has just ended. No break for us as usual. Just going back to college like any other day. It feels to me like although I have so many friends, none really care much about me. I mean I know I have some good friends but I don't think I'll ever have one that really understands me. One that I can share everything to. One that I can really call best friend forever - an inseparable one at that. So here I am, waiting for that one person. Many have come close before but once we were no longer in the same class or we no longer got to see each other everyday, that closeness began to grew wider till we drifted apart. I guess the reason why I'm sounding so sad and inflicting self-pity on myself is because my birthday is coming soon and no one seems to realize it. They don't take the first step to ask if whether I'm free or ajak me out to celebrate. Okay. Maybe I'm expecting too much. Maybe I just want it to be special; to be able to spend it with my friends would

Seeing how much fun my friend had while being a BRAT made me want to join as well. So I send in my application. Tbh, I didn't think I could make it through. Imo, my essay was just meh. But somehow, a month later, I got the email saying I got chosen. I was so happy I felt like I was on cloud nine.. That was until my parents said NO. That was all it took. I came crashing down to earth. No matter how hard I tried to persuade my dad, he wouldn't let me. I know he's just being worried. But, as an 18 year old kid, I'm pretty sure I could handle taking the train and taxi by myself though I'm not sure how safe a taxi in Malaysia would be. Also, skipping 3 days of college isn't that bad. I know how important studies are. I'll be equally worried if I can't catch up on my studies. Either way, I kinda lost hope after that long conversation with my dad, trying to convince him to let me go. That night, I prayed to God, praying that He could make my parents say yes, p