Life's Journey with God

29/4/2020 Be prepared for a long story. Back in 2018, I've had the opportunity of a lifetime to be part of a 3-weeks mission trip to Poland. It was a year of experiences that had opened up my heart to new possibilities — of being a fulltime missionary, a religious, a counsellor, etc. Ever since then, I came back with a strong desire to commit a greater part of my life to God. Although as much as I had great plans in my mind, reality isn't always the same. I came back home and not long after, I started a new job (which I made sure I already had secured before going for the trip). I've always felt pressured to work, to gain income, to have a stable career because that was what was deemed by society and the people around me as the normal thing to do. I battled against anxieties, with insecurities, that looking back, 2019 almost seemed too long of a year. After being in that company for a year, I made a concrete decision to step out of that job and to go into something that was...

This is my second post reflecting on the writings of Henri Nouwen. I enjoy reading his writings because they are intimate, real and honest. It allows me to have a glimpse of what he went through during his life, and the journey he's had. This particular section, though I have not finished the chapter, is profound for me in my current season and I would like to store it for memory. Here I will quote his writing taken from the book Discernment, pages 97 to 99: "What is God calling me to do? Where is God calling me to go? Where do I belong?  "From the beginning, two inner voices have been speaking to me: one the says "Make something of your life, find a good career," and one that says, "Be sure you stay close to the heart of Jesus, never lose touch with your vocation." There was a struggle, a tension there. "Early in life, I pleased my father and mother immensely by studying, then teaching, then becoming somewhat well known by going...