Life's Journey with God

So I wrote a song today. I guess I've just been feeling so stuck lately. This Movement Control Order (MCO) is also not helping because being alone means having more in between time entertaining my own thoughts. And of course, as much as I told myself that I'll use this time to focus on reflecting on the Word of God, my self discipline slowly crumbled away. I ended up spending way more time gaming and watching videos which saw me pushing aside my nightly reflections day after day. The desire to find someone to hold and to love came back stronger. Seeing how people can choose to live a life that makes them happy, I am also inclined to think that they deserve it. Even if a good majority of the world may say that gay relationships are wrong, even if I think that it shouldn't be this way, I cannot or rather, I will not stop anyone from loving who they want to love. People may say that's relativism, and quite inappropriate for me to take this stand. But I have come to

The Need of the Elder Son to Please Nouwen’s personal experience of the elder son is something I relate to as well.   In his writing, he hopes to be able to “offer some hope to people caught in the resentment that is the bitter fruit of their need to please ”.   In my life, this has always been the one thing that I feel bounded by – the responsibilities and expectations of what I need to do for the family – to the point where it becomes an unhealthy bitterness in how I see and live my life. Nouwen offers an imperative approach to make this return possible: we must not only recognize that we are lost but also be prepared to be found and brought home. Through Trust and Gratitude How? Nouwen writes that “although we are incapable of liberating ourselves from our frozen anger,   we can allow ourselves to be found by God and healed by his love through the concrete and daily practice of trust and gratitude”. Without trust, I cannot let myself be found by the Father because I do