Life's Journey with God

So, here we are again, starting a new Lenten season yet again. :) What makes this year's Ash Wednesday so different? Hmm.. I guess it could be because of a few reasons namely: 1) It falls on the eve of Chinese New Year so that means fasting and abstaining even if we have reunion dinner or lunch to attend. I think it really gave me that extra push this year to really follow through and not touch a single food right till dinner. That goes to say, that includes the whole CNY period - not touching meat at all (the duck, roasted pork, bakwa, MEAT basically). Whooo! I really feel pumped up to do this! 2) I finally felt like I understood God's teaching on a deeper level after a camp I went for earlier this year. For many years now, I haven't completely been really close to the big man up there. Somehow, even as I went for camps, spiritual seminars, talks, and even Sunday School, the knowledge and understanding I got from all those hasn't really caused me to reflect on myse

Lord, there have been countless times where I have said that I wanted to lift everything up to you. I have always been saying yes, to lifting my life up into Your hands, to opening my heart for You to come into my life, to be totally Yours to use so that I may be your instrument. But YET, I found myself today unable to take that leap of faith, to come out of my comfort zone EVEN after listening to a talk about it. I do not know whether it was my fears that locked me into place, not allowing me to stand up, let go, and let God, or just me that is unwilling to change (though I doubt the latter because I know I have changed even just a little bit). I do know that this has really made me feel like I've let God down. So many times have I ask God to work His ways with my life. I know I trust Him to do so. So why do I find myself always stepping back away from His callings when He actually does reach out to me? In 2012, when I was finally chosen to be in the Outreach Team for Rally, I w

After going for the STWG (Straight Talk With Girls) camp organized by ASAYO, it really dawned on me that I often do not rely on God. Instead, I take matters into my own hands if I am capable of doing so. He is always there, waiting for me to reach out for Him and yet I often do not. Only in times of hardships and confusion do I seek Him. It is through this camp that I promise to myself and God that I will change anew. I will be a better person, both spiritually, emotionally, and physically. Talking about the camp, it was really unlike any other I've been to. It had much more interesting, real, and relatable sessions. Hearing all the testimonies from the facilitators really got me thinking how great and awesomely loving He is. Through all the brokenness of those that shared, He has done tremendous things in their lives. Like one of them said, it only takes one YES to God for your whole life to change 360°. It really is amazing how God takes those who are broken and made them into