Life's Journey with God

For the first time, I stepped into the CPSC yesterday. I've always known its existence in Taylor's but I never thought that one day I would actually use the services provided by the Counselling and Psychological Services Centre. One very large fear I think is because of the society's perception of mental health issues and the need for counselling. People will probably look at us differently. Family will probably say things like "what's wrong with you" or "it's all in your head". Looking back, I've always struggled with unbalanced emotions, more so in the last couple of years, and sometimes, the difference or the drop in emotions will be so drastic, even my body can't cope with it. Not only will I start having anxiety attacks, going into a irritable state, mentally going to dark places, I will also start feeling nauseous with a painful ache deep within that squeezes all happiness and joy from me. So when I broke down in uni yesterday (

For the period of one month, I've taken to changing the way I live my life, the way I see things, the way I speak, act and think. And it has honestly been a great journey so far. Never have I been able to see Him working in my life as clearly as I have now. So much opportunities to be part of something, to grow in my faith, have also fallen into my hands. From being a speaker in LOST camp, to facilitating in the upcoming Soul Sisters 2.0, I never thought I would be here one month ago. Giving testimonies is definitely something I thought I would never be asked to do because my life isn't even close to those I look up to, isn't something to be modeled after, isn't worth listening about. Or so I thought. But just two weeks ago, I was in El Sanctuary, Melaka, giving a session on prayer and sharing my personal story of how I found God through the mass and through the community. I realized that no la, God was always there. I was just blinded by my own self interests and s