Life's Journey with God

This morning I went for a coffee chat with a FMM sister and some ladies about religious life. Then in the afternoon, I was with some friends as they shared about marriage life. I shared about wanting neither and will continue to choose to stay single. That's always been my default answer. But lately I've been pondering a lot and asking God which vocation He would like for me which would allow me to love Him best. I don't feel ready for religious life as I'm afraid I won't be able to live faithfully to the vows and lifestyle of the sisters. On the other hand, I'm also unsure if I would ever be able to love a man, especially in the context of marriage. Though as I continue to ask the question if religious life is what I truly desire, and what God desires for me, I come to understand bit by bit about why this particular vocation seems so attractive to me and what it tells me about my deeper desires. What Sr. Susanna shared this morning made a lot of sense about how...

Have you ever experienced strong feelings of attraction for someone to the point it overwhelms you? In cases like this, I suppose the common way out is just to tell the person how you feel about them and then just bear the consequences whatever the response may be. But it never really dawned on me how much the burden transfers from me to the other person until a recent conversation with a friend. Upon confession, the feelings one might feel are anxiousness and worry while waiting for a response, disappointment, hurt and sadness if it’s not reciprocated, over the moon if the feelings are met with open arms. Let’s focus on the part where it’s not reciprocated. If we’re able to set ourselves up for disappointment and already mentally prepared for the worst case scenario, I don’t think the blow would be that bad. In fact, I think finally releasing all that pent up emotions and imaginary what if’s scenarios would present some form of relief. But how about the person on the receiving end? Th...