Life's Journey with God

Death. One simple word. How could one word bring so much pain? How do you accept the fact that someone so young, someone that brings so much promise, someone with unlimited future ahead of them, could go so early? I can only pray that as she goes back to the Lord, she would find happiness with her maker and her family will gain peace, strength, and acceptance.

Wow. It's been awhile since I last posted something. My last post was during the last week of semester break. It's hard to imagine that one month has passed by so fast. I'm soon in my week 5 and things are getting more hectic day by day. I guess I've been a bit more chilled this sem as compared to last sem. I even had time to learn how to play Dota 2. Haha.. it's fun when there are friends to play with. :) So I don't know why, but Taylor's made it in such a way that sem 1 focused a lot on exams while sem 2 is all assignment based. What's even more interesting this semester is not the fact that the assignments are very design based, but rather on the choice I made to switch to Performing Arts as my elective at the last minute. I had a lot of fears and insecurities that stopped me for switching out of Illustrative Visual Narrative as my elective. I thought it was a safe choice. I think God really helped me make the decision that day. I had a sudden s...

I felt that this message spoke to me. I have drifted away a few times now. Recently, I did feel like I've started to doubt God's presence. My friend asked me if I've ever felt His presence, His love, His touch before. And I did. I realised that I forgot about the times when I actually felt His immense love. I forgot to look back at my life and see that He was always there and still is. There is a praise song by Planetshakers - Nothing Is Impossible which has the lyrics that says: “I'm not going to live by what I see . I'm not going to live by what I feel . Deep down, I know that you're here with me." While I was listening to this song that day while I was driving, this lyrics popped out to me. I've listen this song for so many times now but it was only last week that it actually meant something to me. It became a personal prayer. A message by Redeemed Online: Doubts and questions are pretty normal. In fact, I think they can and should be po...

Ask yourselves, young people, about the love of Christ. Acknowledge His voice resounding in the temple of your heart. Return His bright and penetrating glance which opens the paths of your life to the horizons of the Church’s mission. It is a taxing mission, today more than ever, to teach men the truth about themselves, about their end, their destiny, and to show faithful souls the unspeakable riches of the love of Christ. Do not be afraid of the radicalness of His demands, because Jesus, who loved us first, is prepared to give Himself to you, as well as asking of you. If He asks much of you, it is because He knows you can give much. -Saint Pope John Paul II; The Meaning of Vocation I think it is important to remember how God has saved us numerous times by bringing us to a better place. He knows us better than we know ourselves. And because of that, He will only allow us to bear our obstacles, challenges or hardship that we can handle and not an ounce more. He never said that this r...

Perhaps some of you may know that recently I've been feeling quite lost in terms of direction in life. Mainly about my confusion on how best to serve God and so, which ministry should I choose and which should I let go of. I prayed to God to help me find some sort of clarity or answer during the 3 days of second training camp. I really needed it, honestly. I didn't realize that I've started doubting God until then. So often I felt like I was on the right track, doing the right thing but I never realize that what I felt, or rather, what I hadn't felt, was actually pulling me away from God. I think I started believing that being unable to feel His presence meant that I'm drifting further away from Him and that He was ignoring me. I guess I didn't realize what I was doing to myself. I let all the doubts and confusion consume me instead of trusting in Him and putting everything into His hands. What really touched me during the whole camp was the group prayer we ...

When you look back at your life, what do you see? Pride? Happiness? Regret? Sadness? I think life is something all of us should treasure. Live like everyday is our last. Appreciate everyone in our lives, every encounter we have, everywhere we go, everything we do. Because what is life when you don't take happiness in the little things that happen, that goes by? Worry not about tomorrow, not about yesterday, but today for today brings enough worry and woes on its own. Just take it one step at a time. If something doesn't work, it's okay to take two steps front, and one step back. Not everything is going to be a smooth ride. In fact, nothing is ever straightforward.

I think an update post is long due. So basically, finals came and went. Stress came and went. Highlight of it was the study sleepover session at Yen's place. :) I think to me that wasn't only productive for our revisions, but also on our friendship. The 5 days together helped us to get to know each other better and be greater friends to one another. Long story short, finals was great. It was surprisingly (okay, well, not so surprising considering the amount of tips that was given) easy save for Antoon's paper which no one could actually prepare for. All I can do now is to hope for the best as I've done my best. Everything is in the hands of the Father now. Moving on, I started off my semester break with a camp - MCCSD (Malaysian Catholic Campus Student's Day). I've known about this camp since the beginning of the year and have been wanting to go for it. Unfortunately, when the time came for registration, my finals timetable was not out yet so I thought, with a...