Life's Journey with God

Two groups,       two best friends,  two families,      two different experiences. I can never explain how grateful and blessed I am to have the people I have around me. For both Big Big Gaye as well as The Last Hope (a.k.a. Inter-mazing). Sure, while some friends have been lost along the way or at least seem to drift further back, I have gained much more important ones. Friends that I know will last for a lifetime. These are what I call true friends, not temporary friends, not university friends, and most importantly, not superficial friends. Midterm group:  Big Big Gaye [From right: Yen, Jessie, Jai, Hazel] Final showcase group:  The Last Hope [From left: Kalley, Sam, Estella, Adam, Tyll, Michelle, Sab, Jessie, Coan; MIA: Ahmad] I guess I'll never say this enough, this gratitude I have for my pillars of strength, my personal support, my soul sisters. Thank you for keeping me emotionally grounded. Thank you for spending...

My friends have been kind enough to pick me up from my house and send me to university for the past few days after the accident. So much gratitude goes out to them. So I kinda composed a song this morning just for fun and because I had the sudden inspiration to do so. It's a pretty short song and I don't know if the melody/tune is any good but I like to use music as a source to pour out my emotions. Either way, if any of you feel like listening to it, it's on my soundcloud. SOUNDCLOUD LINK Lyrics: The sun is shining oh so brightly Take a look outside your window You'll see for yourself Just the day before, I was feeling scared That my life would be taken away from me Now I can see the light again The light the Lord has gratefully provided I want to be a testament of His love, grace and mercy for us, His children.

As I was in the car, milliseconds turn to seconds for me. It was true how people say when you're at the edge of death, you'll experience something else. Before I felt the impact, at that very moment, it was as if time stood still. My car was hit but so many thoughts went through my mind before the impact hit me. Like it honestly amazes me how time can actually stop while my mind is in a whirlwind of rambling thoughts, one, more profoundly than the others is, “I'm screwed". BAM. My car skidded, sounds of glass shattering, hearts thumping, hands shaking... I came down from the car and inspected the damage. It was honestly huge. Like if the other driver didn't dodge, it was sure to hit me right at the side. I think I was more scared for Michelle than myself. Well.. Technically I am scared for myself but not in that sense. I dreaded having to call and face my dad. ._. My car. His car. This is my second time in the police station in 3-4 months. Second time to p...

Remember when I said would love to be in the same group as my midterm family for my final showcase? Well, it turns out that didn't happen. The four of them did end up in the same group though. All except me. I prayed to God, knowing that He would know what's best for me no matter what my heart desired at that time. Even when I was being mean, having a list of blacklisted people, I knew now how wrong I was to say that I didn't want to work with some people because truth be told, how much more greater am I to be compared with them? To put them lower than me? Again, all I hope was this person to be in the same group as me. No matter what happens, I had the feeling that if given the opportunity to work with her, it would be alright as long as I have her to lean on. And true enough, by God's grace, He gave me Michelle. For midterms, I prayed silently to be with Yen. This time around, I knew there was a huge chance I won't be able to work with them again so I hoped ...

So midterms is finally over after getting pushed back so many times. We had such a great time together as a group. Nothing can ever replace our memories together. I realized that God not only blessed me with the person I wanted to work with the most at that time, but also provided me a group of friends that I can now call family. I wouldn't want it any other way. It's true we have amazing chemistry but like any other team, we started off not knowing everyone well enough. Through the time spent together, we created a bond that no one could break. When it was time to say goodbye, it was so hard. To have to split up, not knowing who we will end up with for final showcase, it's definitely harder for us. More so when miss Nat gave us her feedback, saying how good it would be if we could form this chemistry with our new group when five of us split. I would choose the four of you again given the choice. Till we meet again. Hasta La Vista, amigos! ♥

Death. One simple word. How could one word bring so much pain? How do you accept the fact that someone so young, someone that brings so much promise, someone with unlimited future ahead of them, could go so early? I can only pray that as she goes back to the Lord, she would find happiness with her maker and her family will gain peace, strength, and acceptance.

Wow. It's been awhile since I last posted something. My last post was during the last week of semester break. It's hard to imagine that one month has passed by so fast. I'm soon in my week 5 and things are getting more hectic day by day. I guess I've been a bit more chilled this sem as compared to last sem. I even had time to learn how to play Dota 2. Haha.. it's fun when there are friends to play with. :) So I don't know why, but Taylor's made it in such a way that sem 1 focused a lot on exams while sem 2 is all assignment based. What's even more interesting this semester is not the fact that the assignments are very design based, but rather on the choice I made to switch to Performing Arts as my elective at the last minute. I had a lot of fears and insecurities that stopped me for switching out of Illustrative Visual Narrative as my elective. I thought it was a safe choice. I think God really helped me make the decision that day. I had a sudden s...