Life's Journey with God

I think it's time to move on from PA. It's been a great 14 weeks that helped me to experience and grow so much more than I ever had anywhere else. Also, aside from so many emotional blog posts lately, I think it's time to talk about something more positive. So back when I was in HELP University, I had a subject called Personal Development and Leadership in semester one of foundation in arts. It's amazing how that really helped me to find and understand myself better. There was something I learnt back then that I think everyone should know about too. The 5 languages of love: physical touch, words of affirmation, quality time, acts of service, and gifts. I think it's important to know about yours as well as those of your close ones. So to all my friends, do me a favour and complete this for me: http://www.5lovelanguages.com/profile/ In case anyone who is reading this is interested in mine, my primary would be quality time . I have bilingual secondary languag...

I need this. I really really need to write this down here now because at this point, the people I want to talk to aren't online and heck am I calling them. Sure people can say results aren't everything but truth be told, it is because after all, all the hard work we've put in is for the marks in the end. This? This right here is the feedback for our performance. While the others obtained this. I'm not saying they don't deserve it. They do. They really do. I really enjoyed all of theirs. It was amazing. What I'm disappointed is how even after putting so much effort, so much hard work, so much blood, sweat and tears, this is what we got. Forget the fact that we got lowest. Forget the fact that there was no bonus mark given. Ah, you know what. In the end, I think it all just comes back to me. I had expectations for my group. I just thought that we could achieve better results. Heck, I believe that we deserve better. No doubt I would say my group has the be...

So... if you ask me what would my life in university be like without Performing Arts? I honestly don't know. I can't think of anything better than to be in PA. Through the 14 weeks, I have gained and learnt so many things. Things that could not be obtained anywhere else. The extra boost of confidence and new found passion for the arts is not something that can be gained in classrooms. Patience, hardwork, timeliness, teamwork; all these are values that have been so deeply ingrained in us that have also caused a change in me. Stepping out of my comfort zone, taking bigger roles, having to perform in front of a huge crowd. I don't know if I would've had the courage to do any of these without this elective, this subject. The lecturer I have, Miss Nat, who can also be said to be my mentor and maybe perhaps also friend, is so passionate about her work that she inspires me to be the same - to have this drive in what I do. I have made friends that I never t...

Two groups,       two best friends,  two families,      two different experiences. I can never explain how grateful and blessed I am to have the people I have around me. For both Big Big Gaye as well as The Last Hope (a.k.a. Inter-mazing). Sure, while some friends have been lost along the way or at least seem to drift further back, I have gained much more important ones. Friends that I know will last for a lifetime. These are what I call true friends, not temporary friends, not university friends, and most importantly, not superficial friends. Midterm group:  Big Big Gaye [From right: Yen, Jessie, Jai, Hazel] Final showcase group:  The Last Hope [From left: Kalley, Sam, Estella, Adam, Tyll, Michelle, Sab, Jessie, Coan; MIA: Ahmad] I guess I'll never say this enough, this gratitude I have for my pillars of strength, my personal support, my soul sisters. Thank you for keeping me emotionally grounded. Thank you for spending...

My friends have been kind enough to pick me up from my house and send me to university for the past few days after the accident. So much gratitude goes out to them. So I kinda composed a song this morning just for fun and because I had the sudden inspiration to do so. It's a pretty short song and I don't know if the melody/tune is any good but I like to use music as a source to pour out my emotions. Either way, if any of you feel like listening to it, it's on my soundcloud. SOUNDCLOUD LINK Lyrics: The sun is shining oh so brightly Take a look outside your window You'll see for yourself Just the day before, I was feeling scared That my life would be taken away from me Now I can see the light again The light the Lord has gratefully provided I want to be a testament of His love, grace and mercy for us, His children.

As I was in the car, milliseconds turn to seconds for me. It was true how people say when you're at the edge of death, you'll experience something else. Before I felt the impact, at that very moment, it was as if time stood still. My car was hit but so many thoughts went through my mind before the impact hit me. Like it honestly amazes me how time can actually stop while my mind is in a whirlwind of rambling thoughts, one, more profoundly than the others is, “I'm screwed". BAM. My car skidded, sounds of glass shattering, hearts thumping, hands shaking... I came down from the car and inspected the damage. It was honestly huge. Like if the other driver didn't dodge, it was sure to hit me right at the side. I think I was more scared for Michelle than myself. Well.. Technically I am scared for myself but not in that sense. I dreaded having to call and face my dad. ._. My car. His car. This is my second time in the police station in 3-4 months. Second time to p...

Remember when I said would love to be in the same group as my midterm family for my final showcase? Well, it turns out that didn't happen. The four of them did end up in the same group though. All except me. I prayed to God, knowing that He would know what's best for me no matter what my heart desired at that time. Even when I was being mean, having a list of blacklisted people, I knew now how wrong I was to say that I didn't want to work with some people because truth be told, how much more greater am I to be compared with them? To put them lower than me? Again, all I hope was this person to be in the same group as me. No matter what happens, I had the feeling that if given the opportunity to work with her, it would be alright as long as I have her to lean on. And true enough, by God's grace, He gave me Michelle. For midterms, I prayed silently to be with Yen. This time around, I knew there was a huge chance I won't be able to work with them again so I hoped ...