Life's Journey with God

RIGHT OFF EPISODE 3, I KNEW MAGGIE AND ALEX HIT IT OFF STRAIGHTAWAY. THEIR CHEMISTRY IS JUST CRAZY. AND I AM JUST OVER THE MOON THAT EPISODE 8 ENDED THE WAY WE ALL HOPED IT WOULD BE EVEN THOUGH THE SLOW BURN WAS NEEDED, IT WAS SO PAINFUL TO WATCH. Okay, now that I've chilled slightly, let me remove the caps lock and talk about the rollercoaster emotions from episode 7 to episode 8.  Supergirl 2x07: Mid-scene I have to say, this scene has got to be the bravest scene and it's where Alex finally have the guts to tell Maggie what she has been keeping inside and heck no, everything is not alright because she can never see or treat Maggie as a friend again when the scar is still so raw and it hurts just to see her or hear her voice . We see the strong, perfect, headfirst Alex speaking her mind: "No, we're not friends . We hung out, we got close, and then you called me out for liking you and I had the guts to admit yes , it's true. And you told me my...

I've been feeling a little down under today and a lot has been on my mind. For one, it's the darn #Sanvers shipping that caught my heart in flutters. I've been reading a lot of fanfics, surfing Tumblr and Facebook, basically anything on them really. But what is more pressing in my mind right now is how I seem to yearn for a someone special in my life, someone I can be with, share things with, and just being my total self with. I guess it's just a phase when I see people having that sort of happiness, I wonder if I may have that too one day. Ps: Latina women are hot. xD Having my friend called me back today was a lovely surprise because she never does. And like the silly person I am, I stuttered, trying to give a reason why I called her in the first place. It always goes back to assignments and work and uni. I wonder when we'll be able to have an actual conversation without it being awkward, spending time just chatting and getting to know each other outside o...

It's the episode where Alex tells her sister, Cara, about what she has been feeling. Feels a lot like what I did as well, except not to my family. Just close friends that I needed to share to. Again, it was very relatable and what Alex said about still not knowing what this feeling is but having somewhat a hunch about it is very much what I feel too. Hearing her talk about staying up, thinking about it more and more, recalling past memories that might give some clarity on having these feelings, memories that have been suppressed, I think it's all very true and real. It never really dawned on me why I never really had any feelings for guys but more so for girls, but somehow, I got to exploring these feelings and thoughts, and it makes much more sense now. AND OH NO. OMG THAT HURT SO MUCH. D': I want to cry with Alex. Ugh. AH. Dated: 16 November 2016

Supergirl 2x05: Alex Danver's coming out scene From episode 3, when Maggie Sawyer was introduced into the series, and the interaction between her and Alex was just so good, I knew this was going somewhere. And as the story progresses up till the current episode, it has really tugged on my heartstring. The look she gives Maggie when she isn't looking, when she feels concerned because Maggie was feeling down, the wanting to care and be there for her, it was all just so real. Chyler Leigh really did an amazing job, more so for this coming out scene. She made it so real and connectable to viewers in many ways. Good job on the script too.  I would personally say it connects to me on so many levels. Not knowing if there's actually something wrong with you when you don't really feel that connection with guys, being confused with the constant thought of someone (of the same sex), never really considered the possibility of not being straight, and impulsively saying no...

The Little Prince This animation is really beautiful with a combination of stop motion incorporated into the film. The message itself was really heartfelt and I was truly pulled in by the emotional aspect of the story. Growing up to be an adult can really cause us to loose our inner child in us. Through this film, we are reminded that there shouldn't be a mould or rather a specific set of characteristics for us to be a successful adult. Without the childlike approach in us to things, there would be no happiness, no creativity, no meaning in life whatsoever. This story also helps explain really well the transition of life, of how we can learn to let someone dear to us go peacefully knowing that they are still with us in our minds, in our memories. "It is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye." To look beyond the physical and know that what is important lies truly in the heart. This animation really brought tears to m...

Nowadays I tend to write lesser and lesser. Maybe it's because I don't see the need to or maybe it's because I'm just too lazy. Either way, for the past few months especially in the second half of semester 3, I felt this great disconnect between my friends and I. I no longer felt the need or want to hang out with them perhaps due to the fact that my interest has flown to another place, church. I spent most of my time there at that time, occupying myself with daily mass, meetings, practices, and spending time with this one person that I've grown too attached to. Looking back now, I still have that bit of disconnect but it's progressing steadily. Knowing how much they appreciate me and will be there for me through the letters they wrote in July kinda reassured me and helped me realize that I'm just being selfish if I don't acknowledge them. I also received a journal-sorta-book from them and have been writing in it but have now consistently forgetting to wr...

Recently I went to Melaka during the Raya holidays with my fambam (which includes my extended family). I brought my prime lens with me because I wanted to travel light and ever since I got that lens, having even the kit lens with me feels heavy. Due to the restricted distance of the lens (50mm but with a crop sensor, it makes it almost 80mm), it was hard to actually take pictures of things near me and being the "thrifty" person I was, I didn't want to pay almost double the amount to get a DX lens (auto focus) so I have to make do with this manual focus lens. It isn't too bad and in fact, I love it especially for videos. I shot random footage while walking around the streets of Jonker till at one point, I became so tired I decided to screw it and just focus on finding food to eat amidst the waves of human. Whose smart idea was it to go on the first day of Raya?  So with the little that I had, I compiled and edited it into this short recap video. I think having ...