Life's Journey with God

So.. What have I been doing in the last few months between completing my foundation in December and continuing my degree in March? I actually went to search for part-time jobs. I initially worked at Ah Cheng Laksa for just a day before working at Sri Tanjong. After that, I got sent to Taman Sea's bookshop for a month plus too! It was both great and weird at the same time to see my friends and juniors there. Either way, working at a bookshop (a school one, at that) was an experience that was rather bland and boring. I shall now fast forward to the days after Chinese New Year where I officially stopped working. During that time, it was (and still is, at the point of writing this) the Lent season. I figured why not I just go and help out at the soup kitchen which is handled by the AOHD (Archdiocese of Human Development). My friend, Su, was the one who told me about it and teman-ed me there for the first trip/day. Since then, I've been going there on Tuesdays and Thursdays almo...

So whaddup again, guys! Guess what?! :D Through the glory of God and the guidance of the Holy Spirit, I managed to pass both the circuit and on the road test! WHOOOO! I'm feeling so ecstatic now. I'm just so glad it's done and over with. :P My circuit (Bhg 2) exam went quite well. However, I must note that the car was really old and the gear and clutch didn't really work properly. I was so terrified I might ter-press the wrong thing or go too fast or mati engine. The passing mark for it is 56/70. My road test (Bhg 3) was a close call. As the passing mark is 64/80, I only managed to get 65. I lost a lot of marks mainly because of the RSM (Rutin Sebelum Memandu). I shall elaborate on that below. This is a list of the things you need to do for RPK (external car check) and RSM (internal car check). I actually memorized all of it but somehow, every time I get into the car, my mind goes blank. I mean it's different in exams because you get to take your time to answ...

It's somewhat a daunting task to take on knowing full well that I may fail even just because of a few millimeters. As I write to you at this moment, I'm still lazing around calming my nerves. I'll soon leave for the driving center soon. My hopes for this is to really do my best and not allow myself to make a single mistake. I really just want to pass it in one go because even the thought of retaking the exam seems bland to me. I mean having to go through all that jitters, that preparation a few months later (I heard news that we would have to wait for quite sometime to retake our road test) again? Sorry bro, but I ain't gonna let it get to that point. I'll let you know the results at the end of today. As for now, I guess what you could do for me is to pray. God is a major factor in succeeding in everything I do. It is He who takes away my fears in replace of confidence, nervousness for calmness.. He is my pillar of strength, my anchor, my light. In times when I may...

So, here we are again, starting a new Lenten season yet again. :) What makes this year's Ash Wednesday so different? Hmm.. I guess it could be because of a few reasons namely: 1) It falls on the eve of Chinese New Year so that means fasting and abstaining even if we have reunion dinner or lunch to attend. I think it really gave me that extra push this year to really follow through and not touch a single food right till dinner. That goes to say, that includes the whole CNY period - not touching meat at all (the duck, roasted pork, bakwa, MEAT basically). Whooo! I really feel pumped up to do this! 2) I finally felt like I understood God's teaching on a deeper level after a camp I went for earlier this year. For many years now, I haven't completely been really close to the big man up there. Somehow, even as I went for camps, spiritual seminars, talks, and even Sunday School, the knowledge and understanding I got from all those hasn't really caused me to reflect on myse...

Lord, there have been countless times where I have said that I wanted to lift everything up to you. I have always been saying yes, to lifting my life up into Your hands, to opening my heart for You to come into my life, to be totally Yours to use so that I may be your instrument. But YET, I found myself today unable to take that leap of faith, to come out of my comfort zone EVEN after listening to a talk about it. I do not know whether it was my fears that locked me into place, not allowing me to stand up, let go, and let God, or just me that is unwilling to change (though I doubt the latter because I know I have changed even just a little bit). I do know that this has really made me feel like I've let God down. So many times have I ask God to work His ways with my life. I know I trust Him to do so. So why do I find myself always stepping back away from His callings when He actually does reach out to me? In 2012, when I was finally chosen to be in the Outreach Team for Rally, I w...

After going for the STWG (Straight Talk With Girls) camp organized by ASAYO, it really dawned on me that I often do not rely on God. Instead, I take matters into my own hands if I am capable of doing so. He is always there, waiting for me to reach out for Him and yet I often do not. Only in times of hardships and confusion do I seek Him. It is through this camp that I promise to myself and God that I will change anew. I will be a better person, both spiritually, emotionally, and physically. Talking about the camp, it was really unlike any other I've been to. It had much more interesting, real, and relatable sessions. Hearing all the testimonies from the facilitators really got me thinking how great and awesomely loving He is. Through all the brokenness of those that shared, He has done tremendous things in their lives. Like one of them said, it only takes one YES to God for your whole life to change 360°. It really is amazing how God takes those who are broken and made them into ...

I am not one to complain about how terrible I did in my exams. Oh wait. On second thought, I think I do that quite often. Let me rephrase it then. I am not one to go around spreading the anger inside of me. I don't want to hurt people. That's why I rather stay away from too many people when I am too angry. But the thing is, if I end up being alone, I'll probably hurt myself instead. You see, anger is not a good thing, especially for me. I'll get too blinded by it and result to violence. Only, I choose to hurt myself. If you were ever in the same class as me before, especially in the last few years of high school, you might've caught a glimpse of me punching the notice boards in class before. That's one way of how I release stress. It's the easiest and fastest way for me to do so. There was one time I punched it so hard that my knuckles had bruises for a week or so. And of course, you could feel the dent in the board if you wanted to. There might be somethin...